Thursday, December 16, 2010

Broken

This may be long, and run on, but I can't say that I'm sorry, because I'm not. I've got more important things to worry about than my blog entries being perfect.

I am at my wits end. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I need help. I need someone who knows what the hell is going on to come and help me, and take care of the child that I cannot.

I am her mother, and cannot soothe her cries. She screams, and screams and it absolutely breaks me heart. I don't know why she cries. I don't know. I've tried everything imaginable to fix it, to make it better and I just can't. I am at a loss and I don't know what to do anymore.

All she does is sleep, which is fine, if she wants to sleep, then so be it, I'll let her, but when she decides she is ready to eat, she gets furious. She turns red, screams bloody murder, thrashes her head back and forth and will NOT take the bottle. It wouldn't be so bad if it weren't just me at home by myself, if I had someone to help me. She'll scream, and scream, and scream. I literally have to get her to sleep to feed her. I broke down last night. The Mr. worked until 945pm and I had been alone with her all day dealing with her screaming. And then when it was time for her to go to bed, it started all over again. Finally I just handed her to him and let him attempt to make it better. He got her to sleep but as soon as he put her in the bed she was up again. I held her and attempted to feed her and she screamed. So I put her in her swing. Instant sleep.

Is it colic? This only started happening a week ago, shes 6 and a 1/2 weeks old, wouldn't colic have kicked in earlier?

Is it her formula? Does it upset her? She is fine during her late night feelings. Eats with no problem, and goes right back to sleep. So I don't get it. Wouldn't the formula bother her at all of her feeding?

Am I trying to feed her too often? Is she not as hungry as I think?

I don't know what to do anymore.

3 comments:

Carol said...

Girl. Take a deep breath. This is perfectly normal, for you and for her. Around 6 - 8 weeks ALL infants go through a period of extreme gassiness, fussiness, and even projectile vomitting. It lasts a week or two and then things smooth out. I was in a similar situation as you when I had my first baby and it was overwhelming and I felt helpless at times. It's normal, and it's okay. Try your best to get out of the house, sometimes being outside calms a fussy baby (just bundle her well if it is cold).

Also, I would HIGHLY recommend reading the book 12 hours by 12 weeks, you can buy it on www.babycoach.net it's $4.99 This book teaches you how to get baby on a feeding schedule that eventually leads to them sleeping 12 hours. I used it on my 2nd, she slept 12 hours starting at 10 weeks old. It's amazing, and it gives you control.

Babies cry for different reasons, sometimes they cry because they are hungry...often they cry because they are really tired. A schedule will help you sort out which is which.

This won't last long and either will the frustration you feel right now. You can do this :)

Miss Max said...

Totally normal!
My baby was the easiest baby until 6 weeks hit. She all of a sudden woke up one morning, decided to start crying and never stopped until about 10 weeks. She is also being breastfed. She developed reflux, and absolutely had colic. {COLIC IS JUST ANOTHER WORD FOR FUSSINESS} Remember those words. Colic is nothing special, it isn't some "medical" problem it is just the kinks in their little systems trying to work themselves out, and when some babies react worse than others, it is labeled as colic.
My daughter sounds like yours. She would also be put in her swing and ::BAM::; instant sleep and comfort. Just breathe, try and get some more help. See if you can't slip away for an hour or 2 a week to do some "me" time. That little amount of time really helps. Good Luck!
IT DOES GET BETTER AND THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!

Carol said...

Hey Girl! Just checking in on you to see how things are going. I hope you are enjoying this holiday season with your sweet pea!